when it turns black

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

6:04 PM

heys...dunno why suddenly i feel so depressed again...haiz...i like no mood to do anything..i dun feel lyke studying...and my mind ish full of questions...

Why must i exist?
Why must i like yew?
Why yew exist?
Why must i even know yew?
Why am i always being hart broken?
Why cant i get wat i really want?
Why aren't my wish granted?
Why aren't my prayers answered?
Why must i fall in love with a person i end up with nothing?
Why must god do this to me?
Why must i feel all the pain i am going through?
Why must i live now?
Why cant yew....?
Why must this happen to me?
Why cant i give up on yew?
Why in a world is there a thing called love?
Why must i end up being hurt?
Why do i still love yew when yew qont love me?
Why cant i end up happy?
Why why why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haizz......:(

MAYBE im right.
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

nurul

12:49 PM

heys..shh..me now in skool using the computer..haha...ms ang never come wohooo...lets celebrate..now at one of the computer lab..using the labtop one...kinda fun lah...but just now do open book test lor...kinda hard lah..eventhough it is an open book test!!and now also be argh...im pissed abit only lah...coz nurul arghhh..she dun wanna tell me who she reallie likeee..hmm...evil rite...that johnson also know but dun wanna tell...even nichola..arghhh...i am ANGRY!!!!..ahha...no lah..anyways its good to hear that nurul at least like someone...i mean ahya..yew know...but just an advice...it maybe fun fer yew to like sumone..but in life there is up and down..so be preapared for the bad times too...i dun mean to scare yew or wad lah..but it is the fact...yupx....take this advice from me...yupx...but if yew really like that guy and yew have that much confidence..maybe yew can confess to him.....heartbroken happens always in this kinda thing so just prepare yerself kaes...if anything goes wrong..or yew are hurt or wadever...remember that yew have friends which yew can count on...and once again...evven if yew were rejected or wad so ever....just remember that all the things yew done will not make yew regret at all...maybe its hard for yew to accept but one day yew still have to kaes..anyways nurul...thats all....take cares and god blesh...:)

heys..thats all fer now..this entry is mainly fer nurul lah..just a note or two like that..okaes..byess..cyas..god blesh...

MAYBE im right.
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Monday, April 25, 2005

finally blog...

9:40 AM

brr...heys..lets just say i didnt like blog for another one week...opps...i broke my promise that i will blog at least twice a week sorrie....sorrie..and it not because i am lazy or wad lah...because my parents are like at home...feel very uneasy lah...cause they might just like pop in and see...yupx..thats the main reason why lah..erm...this week kinda lots of things actually happen...yupx...see if i am able to blog them all now...ahha...

Okie..i will start of with wat happen in skool on monday...erm...wait ah..think think think!!oh ya..I lost my name tag early in the morning...its sumwhere at home but i dunno where..argh...i misplace it...i was like oh no..how go skool without name tag...aha...but thank god no malay period coz if have..die die..ms lim lehx....ahha..erm..wad else...oh ya during p.e lesson i play basketball fer awhile only..grr...all thanks to the sec 3agape boys wanna play soccer at the court...freak lah...ahaha...kidding`...erm..so after that...like go back to the parade square..then saw...cassandra..kavita fairuz and more sitting down with the meiling....then they were like fortune telling...argh...so stupid lor...as if meiling can predict...she is full of lies...childish.!!then dunno wat predict that wat will cassandra career be....like eww....such a stupid person..dun believe her...only god knows our future NOT MEILING!...erm..then after skool went home...yupx...me and eileeen when home straight after skool wah..i reach home like about 3+ lehx..so early..so good...but then when reach home..after bathe i did my malay homework...then..guess wad..bump..off to bed...i slept like from 3.50 till like 7.10 like that..wah so shiok...hahaha...then wake up...i use the computer fer awhile then i study..ahha..
Erm...on tuesdae!!..SUZANNE ISH BACKKK!!!...happy sia...finaally see her after like 4 days like that...yupx...ahah...then...on tuesday...we also like went home after skool....coz suzanne also need to go back early...so okie..ya little things happen on tuesdae..
On wednesday...okae lah..in skool normal lah..mugging fer examination..streess ah...but after skool me waited fer eileen until like 4+ coz she kena detention..ahaha...cant believe it rite..eileen in detention..ahahha...i was like...ahhahah...but the fact is that the whole class alos kena lah..hahaha...then she like sit outside the staff room...ahha...erm if she read this...ohoh...i will be dead...yyupx...so while she kena detention, me,liling and audrey when to eat maggie behind skool..after..that..go back skool wait fer eileen and then all go home together except me and eileen took bus lah..ahah....
On thursdae i was like solo in class..kinda good lah..i can concerntrate more...aaha..audrey was absent..and i believe she missed alot of things...haha...then on friday also absent...haha..poor thing...ya on fridae assembly was like kinda boring...its all chinese..i was like dotx dotx and dotx..ahaha...erm...yesterday...nth much happen at home..i was like just watching tv...and i watch mvp...and abit of dunno wad show..got taufik and singapore idol finalists...yupx...then today...nothing happen also...just slacking at home...and later i will be mugging fer my examinations...coz its like only 10 more days to mid year...scareyyy...about 7+ i will start studying...i am a good girll yew know..ahhh bluff...but reallie..i need to study...ahah...

looks like this week is fun..but u haven know the sad part...dun really waant to say..but maybe just a summary of it lah....i am going to try to forget...him....haizz...why cant i get wat i really love....haiiz...fisrt sean..then...him....next who!....arghhh....this is killing me and hurting me inside out.....argh...i dunt want to be heartbroken for once...haizz...i really dunno wads going to happen next....its all in gods hand....just really hope fer the best:)...yupx..okies..thats all...take care and god blesh....remember to srudy hard fer exam okaes....

MAYBE im right.
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Monday, April 18, 2005

wah me so long never blog!

11:01 AM

bump!..ahha..erm let see its been nearly a week or so i have not blog...wah...miss so much...actually kinda caught up with all the daily activities...yupx...busy here busy there...but not only busy lah...but sometime lazying around...ahha..erm..oh yeah...i cut my hair last sunday!!wohoo....so its like a chilipadi except longer abit lah..so maybe overgrown chilipadi??...ahah...i remmebered eileen draw a chilipadi on one of the letter she wrote to me during when i kena suspension...ahah...isnt it like last year?...wah tyme reallie flys...haha...hmm...yupx...but i still kinda hate my fringe still...because...its damn darn curly...argh......sucks lor....but nevermind...let it be....it will grow..ahha...and i dun think i am planning to rebond my hair again because i dun wanna my hair to be spoilt...let it be natural...i am happy with it okaes...erm..oh ya last monday p.e lesson was so much fun..mr ramesh did not test 2.4km..yeah...erm...ya...then he allowed us to play games...like wadever u want...and i was like yeahh...then i played the monkey bar fer awhile....my hand not strong lah..but it is immproving!...yeah..then suddenly saw chze sing practising her basketball skills...then i decided to join in lor..wah so fun lehs...she thot me to jump!..and i score a few goals larh..not bad fer a first timer...i am impressed...ahahha...lame sia.....i am like praising my self..am i crazziee or wad?..haha...erm...oh ya i am now known by the name of michael cupcake!..ahah..cute hor..bzz...cassandra name me then since i played the basketball...ahah...coz like michael jordon..ya...so i am the michael cupcake...ya..get it?...oh well if dun...nevermind..haha wad else..i am still slacking..i dun understand physic..maths..!!..they so hard...argh...totally hard....ah...wadelse...oh ya..i was so glad that friday got jogathon..so fun lor...haha...at east coast...yepx...erm...ya..met eileen and chew sung and liying at the 969 bus stop at yishun at about 6.30 then took the 969 bus all the way down to tampines...then took taxi down to east coast...ahha...good idea rite...aha...then reach there about 7.30 like that...haha..then we helped mrs boey put up the balloons...like fer decorations...ya...then...after that about 8.05+ like that..the skool gathered..then 3 compassion was like...so little ppl and we were like chased out by many teachers...especially the teacher from a particular class...brr....idiot sia....then..settled down near the sec 5 area..ahha...it was ok lah..then took attendence..and like other classes their form tecaher with them and my class was like teacherless...ahah...lame rite...then like 0830 like that start the jogathon..haha..me liling and liying..walk...ahaha....kinda fun..and not as long as the walk at the sentosa last year...ahah..ha ha!...erm...then after that..i collected food fer my class..and then eat lah...ahha..oklah...mc donald wad...!..ahah...erm..then got dunno wad performance...then i was like walking here and there...ahha..and saw lots of people..ahah...so fun!...u know wad i mean rite?...dotx..aha...wad esle...ya...then it was eileen performance...haha..she wore the kimono..haha..than god it is 2 layer or else she would be complaining..ahah...she borrowed it by one sec 1 guy name arjuna if i am not wrong lah...ahah..then after jogathon dismissed...went out with liling liying and eileen..i was pissed..by certain reason...i mean...i was like noot in a good mood...thanks to certain ppl...i actaully wanna get out of there fast lah..but then have to wait...yepx...so give way lor...but then when took neoprint..we went like from dead to alive!...ahah..so happy sia...the neoprint turn out nice i guess...go check out frenster...okaes...wah..i nearly blog for about 15 mins or so...ahah...ahha...lame...erm..wad else...yesh! tomoroow is monday means PE!!i am planning to play basketball..so i can grow taller.....my height now like about 149 so wannna grow to 158+ like that..so hopefully i will grow..ahha..dun wanna be short....oh god please make me grow!...pleaseeee..ahha...okaes..thats all fer now...my fingers are aching now...ahha...so better not typw any longerr...ahah....so...thats all fer now..and take care...and GOD BLESH YEW!!...love yew all!...:)

MAYBE im right.
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Monday, April 11, 2005

over ? ?

12:50 PM

heys...ahaha..i never blog alot on friday because as i told yew my hand very the tired liao...ahaha...i also dunno why...i just feel like dead...but todae...is sunday so must be happy and energetic abit...ahha..even though tomorrow is skool..such a drag rite...ahhaha...i talk to yew wad happen on fridae..hmm..let me see....oh i remember...we got dunno wad 4th student council investiture....kinda boring....zzzz....me at the hall like trying to be alive...!hahaaa...lame sia....then me and my frens saw a guy from my class digging his nose and EAT..YA e-a-t the nose dirt...so damn GROSSS!!!i was like wad the hell!...i am so damn disgusted lor...urgh...ewwwwwwwwwwwww........aniewaes...finish like about nearly 2 pm like that..then i stayed back like until nearly 4.45 sumthing like that...i was at the canteen alonee....waiting fer eileen and suzanne...the i school tour all by my self...haha..okie lah..then i watch the uniform groups practice their drills..ya...erm...ya then go to mac eat....ahah....then go home....yupx....okiae...then yesterdae..i woke up about 8+...ahha..dunno why so early...but later 12.30 i need to go out coz got the stoopid malay idiom talk...wah piang..so BORING LOR...i dere....half dead.....its like 2 hours talk..kanasai..after that..i sms eileen say want to meet at yishun then go for like late lunch but early dinner...ya like that...hhaha..then we tok tok tok..then she wanna buy the frenship band thingy..then go mini toons...then go power nine....then i suddenly think that i really want to cut my hairrrrr......i really want it....it is so damn think liao....i need to layer....arghh.....idiot...i wanna cut my hair todae...but my mum weent to market..so later ask her whether can cut today..oh please i want them cut todae.....so hot!!!!!!!!!!cut hair!cut hair!cut hair!...and my fringe is like my hair liao...i mean...nevermind...i need it alottttttttttttt!!!!!...argh...plz i need to cut my hair desperately....this is all i wish ferrrrrrr...........arghh...oh god..plzzzzzzzzz..........:)..pretty please....sugar on the top....ice cream sweet and wadever u want.............juz get my hair cutttt................haha...okae...if i cut my hair or not..later i tell yew....okie..byes...and god blesh...

MAYBE im right.
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

enough of you. i had it

9:47 AM

Ending all here
Leaving myself all alone
After what youve done
My heart broke and it shattered
Havent you had enough.

GET OFF

MAYBE im right.
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Monday, April 04, 2005

sigh, ure killing me

9:00 AM

There is something wrong with me. Im all depressed. Help me. I dont know what i am thinking and i am feeling damn lost. I dont know where to go. I feel super isolated. i shouldnt have know so much things about you. Perhaps im thinking too much? I feel the world is being so cruel to me. I dont even know what in a world im going through. All i know is i feel terribly sick. Cant take it anymore. Im in need to scream. MOODLESS ):

MAYBE im right.
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I MISS YOU

3:10 AM

Today morning is damn irritating. My aircon is spoiled in the middle of the night. Shoots! There's PE tomorrow. I have not done my homeworks. Im pretty lazy. Anyways, jogathon coming. YEAHH! im excited for it.

WHEE~

MAYBE im right.
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Sunday, April 03, 2005

newest and latest

3:21 PM

I have like tons of blog ever since im alive. Anyways, april fool is super boring. I went home after school. Its like so boring. All i did was to trick two people. Aud Tan and Cassandra. Thats all for today. This is so uncool

heys...this is my like 10th blog...ever since last year!...ahaha...so many rite...*giggles*...erm...this blog actually is like for all my friends to read...and i got another blog...that one...its only between me eileen and suzanne....and another one....most confidential of all...not even my best friends know..the only one know is me and god and my computer...yupx...for this blog...hmm...i will still post..but i wont publish the name of the person whom i like...aaha...i will just use 'he'...yupx...so as u can see...u will not know....muahaaaha `evil luff -....bahhx....hmm...but i think about only 5 people will know who i like...the rest...DUNNO!! hehe....erm wad else....okie...let me tell you wat happen yesterdae..the fact is nothing..so damn boring...for the first time in my secondary life i straight away go back home after skool...idiot rite...ahah...and APRIL FOOL was B O R I N G!!....but i manage to trick 2 people....Audrey and Cassandra...ahaha...and i got trick once only....boring lor...sian...okie lah...thats all fer now...blog later....see yaz....tasha broken; hartted` signing off...god bless...

MAYBE im right.
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Singapore universe

1:01 AM

Heys, im back(: Im currently watching Ms Singapore Universe. Today stayed at home and the same goes for tomorrow. Im feeling pretty lazy to go out. I would rather use my computer. But theres school on monday. I HATE IT ):

-continue dating my TV

MAYBE im right.
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